Ameliahhh

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Jonathan Sun aka youngstag… where are you?

I was listening to the song composed for this online friend back in May 2005 - “It’s Okay”

It reminded me of those darkest periods… and because he cleared his entire online presence I wasn’t able to find anything of him now.
I found the lyrics that I reposted then elsewhere.

“It’s Okay”
Written, Composed
Arranged and Performed by Jonathan Sun
Copyright 2005
February 24, 2005 - May 6, 2005

Dedicated to Amelia

You and I, similar in so many ways,
Just like everyone else
Where day to day, we try to break these chains,
And look for paradise
But we’re overwhelmed, by the lies that others say
Or assume, even claim to be true

None of them know, they just point and laugh away,
Like they’re on higher ground
Spit on our dreams, our goals and our pride
‘Til we lose it and give in
And then we become, nothing more than a pawn
Sayin’ goodbye, to that hopeful life we had

And they’d say, they don’t even think they mind,
Though they bother us all the time
‘Til we lie and say it’s fine to just give in
Simply put, they’re the friends who break us up
Burning up our futures
Twisting it until it’s theirs and we’re just toys
(It’s always killing me…)

We try so hard, but we’re always living on the edge
Barely alive
But it’s just that, that tinge of trampled hope
That helps us all survive
Depressing, I know, but it’s the way we sufferer’s know
It’s okay, we’ll make it out some day

We’re stronger than most, we’ve seen this side of hell
And we fought right back
We’re sympathy’s host, but not even pity helps
We just need someone there
To be sincere, to listen and play their part
We don’t need advice from those who’ve never seen
What we’ve been through

‘Cause for me, it’s over, can never be anything more
Just because nobody truly believes in me
But I still try my best, to somehow prove me wrong
And God that would be nice if it all turned out okay
—-

I am so sorry I wasn’t able to express my gratitude then, which I still am not very good at even now…
It makes me feel special knowing I was merely a stranger you never met, I wasn’t even really an easy person to chat with.

I am not even sure where you are or how you are doing now…. Just praying hard that you are well, and we will talk again.